basically, it never ends...another bad morning

basically, it never ends...another bad morning
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more waking up to feeling totally sick...it just isn't reasonable that i should have to do all this alone. we made this family together. we made jubal together...now R. just wants to see the kids once or twice a week and pay $400 a month for their care? and i'm left to do all the parenting, and pay all the bills, and i'm supposed to be physically here for the kids and stay calm and nice and loving and fun? my life feels all ripped to shreds.

how can there not be any relief from this? how can a person be expected to handle all of this? how can there be no fecking justice in the world? where the hell is the man i married and who is this new guy?

i just feel so completely sick, in every way possible.