this stuff has got to come from somewhere...yet another plea

meeting to discuss the divorce papers
Originally uploaded by hedgenettle

here's our status and what still needs to arrive...

the kids are doing phenomenally well. i can't stress this enough. it's hard and they're sad, we're sad...our world has vastly shifted. we're earthquaked, tsunamied, tornadoed, war-torn. we're all raw and lonely and there are moments of sadness and distress every day. but all the other moments are good ones...we're gardening together, playing together, doing chores together, reading our books, playing games, vegging out watching a show on t.v. together...R. and i were able to lay out a visit schedule for the next term of school (we're unfortunately going to have to do this every term), so now it is known when they will see him and for how long, and that is a relief for all of us. their first over-night is tonight and i am really hoping jubal is okay with it, as he won't be nursing before bed or first thing in the morning...all i can do is hope that being with daddy is better than nursing mommy. it seems like it will be.

i got my first child support check at the first of the month and soon after a lot of my bills rolled in. they are paid and nothing is outstanding at this moment, but the electric bill hasn't come (and with it the request for my $155 deposit!!! eek) and i have no idea when it will. i have about $50 in my bank account and another $20 in my wallet. that's it. for the whole rest of the month.

so here's my plea, again:
if you know and love us, send a check. if you can spare a hundred, or fifty, or twenty, or hell, even five...send it. if you normally send a christmas check, send it now instead. the relief of knowing i have enough to cover the bills that still need to roll in will be the best gift ever. my financial aid kicks in mid-july, assuming all goes correctly. so now is the time, now is the zone for which i need a buffer. i wouldn't ask if we didn't need it.

i know people feel weird about giving people money. trust me, i feel weird about asking for it. but there is no getting around the fact that i need it. i just do. so i'm asking. if you feel really weird about it, BUY SOMETHING from me. there are a few things in the etsy shop, i have a box of various citrus-smelling glycerin soaps, i have three veggie applique tote bags that aren't up on etsy yet, i could even make a custom bag/zip pouch/whatever if what you want matches something in my fabric stash (which is ample). tell me what you want and i'll do my best to make it. or front me for future design work. or WHATEVER. people have given us bags of clothes and bags of groceries, which is awesome. but i need cash. it's only a small window. i'll spend it well. it'll go to a good place. it's for the kids, the house, our life. it'll come back to you some day just how you need it to.

and on that topic: loki is throwing us a mortgage relief party. i'll post the invites later, but the date is 20 june and it starts at 5:00, so save the date, as it were. and if you can't come, and can't send a check...pray the party is a huge success.

on a more pleasant note--i made a new batch of laundry soap today and will post the recipe and pictures tonight or tomorrow. finally!