spring "egg"quinox

hooray for spring! last night i tried to stand an egg on end--a feat you are supposed to be able to accomplish on the equinoxes because of the precisely balanced way the earth is spinning at the exact time of the equinox...and this is something i have wanted to try for years, but either didn't know the exact time, or didn't have an egg with me just then. so i knew the time and i had the egg...drumrolllllllllll please....okay, it would not stand upright on a hard flat surface, but it would stand on end on the flat of my hand (my hand was NOT cupped!) and the egg honestly felt different than usual. the yolk was *different* inside of it. i consider the experiment a partial success and it was definitely exciting. (note i restrained myself from saying "eggciting"! hahaheehee)

so spring means lots of rain, which means i've yet to plant my potatoes...but lots of stuff is planted: greens, 2 successions of peas, radishes, carrots, beets, onions...and lots more stuff inside. peppers and kale and flowers (hazel picked hollyhocks and vesta picked sweet red peppers). i'm running out of room on my window sills.

i'm fairly exhausted lately. jubal's putting out teeth like the marsh marigolds put out runners. it for some horrible reason involves an important ritual of waking up to either cry or just mess around at crazy times like two in the morning. this ritual does not get in the way of the rest-of-the-night ritual of constant nursing and needing to shift sides. for the record, it isn't literally constant, but it feels that way to me and my hips, which tire easily of lying on my side. six down, a helluva lot more to go...it seems like they settle at twenty for a long time. so fourteen to go. for now.

i am still struggling with the way i want my life to be versus the way it really is. all the secret details most people don't know. yup, even i have them! the things i want and don't want and how to achieve or avoid. what to accept responsibility for and what others need to own. spring seems like a good time to deal with some of that *stuff*...you can use your planting and weeding to do little rituals of nurturing or releasing--saying again what you want to grow in your life and what you won't allow. what needs serious boundaries and what is free to blossom wildly. and anything you don't want you can compost.

happy spring everyone!

gratitudes: !) eggs. are you kidding me?! they are amazing! chickens lay more than they need and we can eat 'em. you don't even need a rooster! and my neighbors will be pleased to learn that you can have three chickens per household in the city limits (but no roosters). @) patience. somebody somewhere has some, and i'm glad. #) asparagus. yum. $) the library. i love that place. they have everything there. %) my kids. they are really amazing and resilient and creative.