time flies away as i panic

it's the endless problem of time. i feel completely elated by all the amazing stuff i want to do (you would not believe the number of awesome bag, notepad, notebook, etc. ideas i have moshing in my brain every night!) and i don't even have time to adequately sweep the floor every day! i fantasize daily about sending my family away for a month. 30 days of time! i would only have to do what i wanted and my house would be clean! i would spend the first three days super-cleaning the house and FINALLY organizing the office for maximum efficiency. i would spend the rest working. cutting, sewing, gluing, assembling, knitting (in the evenings...i'm dying to try knitting play food)...i would dedicate the mornings to a quick clean-up...dishes, sweep, laundry, etc. i imagine this would take and hour or less if it was just me and i didn't have to stop to nurse the baby. or feed the baby. or help the girls with some project. or make lunch for four. etc. i would cook awesome dinners a couple of times a week, the rest would be left-overs and egg/toast/salad type affairs. my brain would blaze with creative energy, blessing me with some kind of adrenaline rush that would prevent me missing my family at all. i would make multiple trips to the print shop and master photoshop and have a work station on every available surface. i would be a bottlecap magnet machine. my fingers would be stained with ink and my floor littered with thread (til that morning clean up!) the supplies i need would always be available, never sold out and especially never on back-order...i'd build a giant, amazingly stylish and effective inventory, which i would photograph perfectly, post diligently and sell like hotcakes!

i would like to say more, but i am out of time. for the record, though, i do want them to come back after 30 days...maybe 30 days on, 30 days off? so rad!...

i'm grateful for:
1) quick, but delicious meals
2) my breath
3) my washing machine
4) my garden fences (which will allow me to utilize my clothesline this summer!)
5) that the kids can babysit jubal while i nap

money

this is just a quick post because jubal is happily crawling about the office naked and i'm sure that will only last a few minutes....

this is my announcement to the universe: i am open and ready to receive the funds i need to achieve my dreams. specifically, i am open and ready to receive at least five thousand dollars which will be soley dedicated to launching my very small home-based business of selling designed-by-me notecards--which will be offset printed with quality and care by a local, ecologically responsible company--and hand painted (and otherwise personally embellished) sturdily constructed canvas grocery bags.

i am dedicated to creating a means of supporting myself and my family from home so that i can be available for the kids, the garden, my husband, our pets, and everything else homefront oriented. staying home is the right thing to do for us, so i'm ready to work hard from home, doing something i love so that i can help support the family and express my passions in a healthy, beneficial way.

thank you.